procrastination

Siting in my chair paints, paper, paint brushes and pallet all in front of me ready to be used. Going through my mind? Multiple beautiful scenes just waiting to be put onto paper. Yet something is holding me back. I can't seem to pick up the brush or even the paints to mix them. What is the problem you ask? A bad case of procrastination. I keep thinking in my head. What if I do it wrong? What if I mess it up? What if it won't look good? Yet I won't know until I try. So what if I mess up. I can try again I'm not perfect none of us are and we will of course make mistakes the important thing is to learn from them. So what if a color comes out too dark then I try again. Yet I couldn't bring myself to paint even still. So I stop what I'm doing and pray. All the negative thoughts leave. I pick up the brush and paint.

And even if things don't turn out right the first time 

I just have to have faith and try again.